my heart hurts.. so much.. so much..
i don't know why i my heart hurts so much whenever i think of her... just like now... its breaking me apart... i really don't know what i'm doing is right... waiting for her... maybe i should forget everything and move on... but i think i just can't... is this love? the feeling of hurt increases each day i waited.. must love always contain hurt? love=happiness with an unknown expiry date? im really lost in my own darkness... who will be the one who reaches out for my arm to pull me out of the darkness in the end? i really wish it'll be her... or maybe... just maybe... by then.. i'll be too afraid... too afraid even to be healed... even if its her... or anyone...
stupit me.. hurt myself 3times in a day.. haha!
wha... both my legs now have injuries.. but lucky there's no serious injuries.. 1st injury: sprain my left ankle while playing badminton wif yani.. 2nd injury: hiting myself in the right knee cap against the netball goal post while jumping for the damm ball... stupit game.. 3rd injury: acidentally kicking the edge of the bathing cubical while im on my way out.. resulting a deep cut under my left foot.. there is some bleeding but after putting it under running water the bleeding stopped.. haiz.. hope i'll recover before this sat's floorball training..
haiz.. whole day thinking of her.. her! her! her! going mad!
quite an ordinary day today.. woke up late.. around 2pm plus.. as yesterday went cycling with my brother, orh ji, ting long and zhi siong.. had a great time.. went to labador park.. the downhill was fast fast fast! nearly burnt my disk brake.. omg it was damm hot! today totally no mood.. kept forcing myself not to think of her.. but i just can't help it.. my whole mind is filled with memories of her.. its breaking me down..
